Dog a Thought

Welcome to My World of Thoughts.

This blog serves as a platform for my loved ones to have a peek of my views, thoughts and feels.

If you know the existence of my blog through me, you are undeniably a loved one of mine.

Please do avoid linking me from your website or blog; I need a little privacy of my own.

Occasionally, I will update a little of myself on this blog too.

Sorry if my posts were to bore you.

However, if there is something that disagree or upsets you, we can always debate about it.

That's the purpose of the Tagboard.

Meanwhile, enjoy your stay. =)

Rane

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Monday, October 15, 2007

Lately, I have been experiencing bad mood swings. My mood will fluctuate between hopeful, confused, depressed, ecstatic and lost. These happens frequently when I reflect about life, and when i think about my future (plans). Most importantly, my moods are easily influenced by others.
When people around me are down, I will tend to feel down. Ironically, I only feel happy for a short moment when others are feeling happy. Why, you may ask. The reason is simple; I tend to make comparisons. I will wonder why have I achieved so little when others have already attained this and that? Why can't I be as competent or capable as X, Y or Z? Why can't I, why can't I, why can't I?

I remember one of my secondary school teachers used to tell me "人比人会气死人!" (loosely translated as comparing yourself with others will only result in death due to excess anger.) However, I personally feel that comparisons are the best benchmark; the benchmark to know how well you are doing, how fast & far you have been progressing and where you are standing amongst the rest.

Comparisons can indeed be motivational factor for one to do better, but excessive comparisons are not healthy. At least I think the kind of comparisons that I am making aren't in the long run.

Yes, I do indeed need to talk, but there are tonnes of thoughts going through my mind at any point in time and it is so difficult to put them into words. My brain sure is good at multi-tasking. If only there is an invention of a machine that allow my thoughts to be typed out into words only when I want them to.

I need to quit my habit of remaining silent. I need to learn how to talk. I need a talking companion.

I really need to run away from reality for a moment. Anyone keen on a backpacking trip? Serious backpacking; no hotels, no shopping. Just experiencing life in another part of the world.

I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 1:04 am

tHis ~~isn't~~ is ME

All about Me!

Rane
is her pseudo name.
is an Asian Chinese
lives on the tropical island, Singapore.
can be childish, yet mature; quiet, yet noisy
always indecisive & procrastinating

Love of her Life
Animals
Family
Food
Learning
Mother Nature
Music
Volunteer Work

Believes In
Conservation; Reuse, Reduce, Recycle
Saving the Environment
Returning to the Society

Keen In
Backpacking
Overseas Volunteer Work
Adventure Trip / Expedition Trip

Will Like to
Go-Kart
Dive
Wakeboard
Night Cycle
Cycle around the City
Catch a Beautiful Sunrise

Is Going to
Master the Art of Playing Pool
Learn the Art of Bowling

Aims for
Merit for Piano Grading Test
Distinction for Guzheng Grading Test
Fluent Conversational Skills - Japanese
Complete at least 1/2 of NYAA Gold
Obtain Powered Pleasure Craft Driving License

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wishesGALORE

1) Go for Charity Dog Run
2) ~~Bring the Poochies out!~~
3) Set up an Adoption Blog
4) Donate money to Charity
5) Convince my friends to donate/volunteer at Charity as my birthday gift
6) Volunteer
7) Go Ubin
8) A Nice Over Night at Sentosa
9) Pudding to Blend in Well