Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I am SO freaking tired. I've got loads to do and I'm not able to sleep well, especially last night. I slept at 11am, the earliest I did in ages.
I woke up nth time yesterday; the silly dog (Posh) kept on having her paws stuck between the cages and can't stop whining at the highest pitch. The weather is freaking hot and it woke me up a few times. My ankle hurts so much I woke up when I flipped during sleep time. I didn't have quality sleep because I kept having nightmares; the second one was was my granny aging so much that I couldn't recognise her. When I finally recognised her, I learnt that she was down with some strange illness that the medical industry has little knowledge of. Before I knew it, she disappeared behind my back and I went around searching frantically, only to wake up with my heart pounding superbly fast, and prespiration all over my forehead. As for the first dream, I remembered a couple of hours after I woke up, but soon forget about it.
Whenever I have bad dreams, or dreams that 'requires' me to work excessively, like running for my life, climbing up the endless stairs, searching for my loved ones etc, I'll wake up feeling more tired than ever.
I was already feeling very stress by my many tasks, and endless burdens. It didn't help when the string of unpleasant events yesterday that got me so tired, upset and stressed; my conscious mind could not stop working during sleep time, and probably because of that both my conscious and subconscious mind could not come to a consensus, therefore resulting in me waking up feeling so worn out.
Never mind if you don't understand what I was trying to say in the above paragraph. In short, my mind is just too preoccupied to rest.
If only the higher authority up there has given mankind more time for leisure instead of work, then we can easily balance between furmily, family, friends and hobbies with minimal difficulty. Most importantly, I will have some time for myself.
I am really finding myself spending very little time with my family and friends; I feel so bad when I have to reject MR's outings, I feel worse when I can't accompany my sisters and him for even a simple meal or outing, I feel worst when I haven't met up nor contact my polytechnic friends for a year or more.
It's not any better when I can't remember when was the last time I was doing anything for myself. (I don't even have time to service my handphone. Thus, if you have problem contacting me, you should that I still don't have time to service my handphone.)
Sighs. Enough of grumbling. Back to cleaning up after the dogs, and attending to the rabbits and hamster.
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 12:44 am
wishesGALORE
1) Go for Charity Dog Run
2)
Bring the Poochies out!
3) Set up an Adoption Blog
4) Donate money to Charity
5) Convince my friends to donate/volunteer at Charity as my birthday gift
6) Volunteer
7) Go Ubin
8) A Nice Over Night at Sentosa
9) Pudding to Blend in Well
