Sunday, January 11, 2009
I have started a new blog with a new address.
In other words, I've moved.
PM me for the address if you'll still like to read what I write. =)Labels: New Blog
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 3:27 am
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
There are some people I wish never lived, and some I wish never died.
Life's so contradicting, isn't it?
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 1:34 am
Thursday, December 25, 2008
I guess this is my worst Christmas.
Both Christmas Eve and Christmas day is ruined; ruined by the uninvited who simply refuses to leave. Ruined by the unreasonable and senseless, evil and demanding, selfish control freak.
Why do many good people leave us after much sufferings while the bad and evil ones linger around ruining and irritating the lives of many others?
It makes me wonder if living is a form of punishment. Maybe heaven is a place meant for living beings to be 'relieved' of their pains and sufferings.
I've never felt so miserable during Christmas before.
Even the best/most expensive christmas gift I've received did minimal to cheer me up.
Gone are my happy days.
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 4:58 pm
Friday, December 12, 2008
I lost a friend to a motor accident. He's the second one. He was my project mate for one of my modules in poly during my final year. Though we often disagree with the way of handling the assignments, we got along fine after the project. He was one of the top students from my batch.
I met him once at the MRT station after we graduated. We even exchanged numbers, and for some weird reasons, he asked me to attend his 'graduation ceremony' from medic in army, which I didn't. Before I know it, he's gone. And I only got to know it from the papers.
I'm still in a state of shock.Labels: Emotions
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 6:19 pm
Monday, December 08, 2008
I've just deleted a whole chunk of words that I've typed. Just can't blog to the point, and words just can't seem to form into proper sentences,
我觉得好累,好累。 同时也觉得心力交瘁, 心理也不觉得很不平衡. 总觉得付出很多, 却没有得到回报.虽说付出时不该奢求回报, 但我也不可能一直无条件的付出吗!
帮了别人那么多, 为他们解决那么多困难, 最后却得到的是例行性的一句‘谢谢’,而并非真正感激我而向我说声‘谢谢’。任何工作都有我的份, 不见得立功时提起我的名字. 这还算是小事,他们经常在我还没处理好自己任务范围之内的事,就交待我做这个, 那个的. 过后, 当我忙于帮他们处理之前所交待的事件时, 却又怪我忽略了自己的事务. 更糟的事, 在我还未处理好任何事时, 就安排我做别人的事!
天啊! 我只是个凡人! 我既不是三头六臂, 也不是千手观音, 要我怎么应付的来?
最近我经常感到身心疲惫, 力不从心. 经常睡眠不足, 结果精神紧绷.
好想这样就算了.Labels: Emotions
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 1:47 am
Friday, September 26, 2008
I know it's been eon years since I last updated any blog. I've been busy, really really busy that I'm only updating the blog now that I am on MC.
Yes, I only have time for rest and leisure now that I'm sick, with a temperature of 38.5.
I've not only neglected my own health, but also my loved ones; friends and family. I didn't spend good quality (nor quantity) time with my furries. The best thing we did was to sleep together.
I'm so exhausted, and I'm somewhat thankful that I'm sick. Otherwise, I would have been pushed to the max. I really detest it when people start taking advantage of my kindness.
I hate it even more when my loved ones take my kindness for granted. Aren't you suppose to protect the best interest of your loved ones and shield them from pains or sufferings within your capable means? Why must you put us through the same unhappiness that you have been through? Why didn't you even try to defend us? Have you forgotten who stood by you when you were at the lowest point in life? How could you?
Can't you even see how tired and exhauted I am? Don't you care, at all?
I know this doesn't make sense to many, but I find it hard to explain over the web. If you're in doubt or curious, I can explain to you in details in person, but that is if I manage to squeeze some time in the midst of my busy schedule meet you. I don't mean to be arrogant nor cocky, but I'm really really really busy. So busy, even having a good rest is tough. Maybe I should do something about my time and review on how badly I've managed it. Sighs.
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 2:29 pm
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
I am stuck between options. I need advice. Advice from someone who's wise and unbiased.
I think that someone should be an education counselor (or someone who's of equivalent capabilities). He or she shouldn't represent any schools, institute or educational board?
Anyone knows where/whom I can seek help from?Labels: After Thought
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 12:33 am
wishesGALORE
1) Go for Charity Dog Run
2)
Bring the Poochies out!
3) Set up an Adoption Blog
4) Donate money to Charity
5) Convince my friends to donate/volunteer at Charity as my birthday gift
6) Volunteer
7) Go Ubin
8) A Nice Over Night at Sentosa
9) Pudding to Blend in Well