Monday, July 21, 2008
I wish my parents can stop spoiling my sisters. I know they are trying to give their best, but you are not doing your best when you spoil your kids. If it is, then why didn't you spoil me?
I know this may sound like I'm making this statement because I'm jealous, but I'm not. I find it way too difficult to handle my (younger) sisters anymore. All because my parents tend to give in to their requests more often than not. Now they tend to throw endless tantrums with bad attitudes when things don't go their way.
Even when they are just requesting for something and we can't accede to it. Even if it wasn't mentioned or mutually agreed upon. Even when I've explained how much inconvenience their acts will cost us. Even when I compromised by changing a certain criteria so that things will be much easier for us. Even when .........
When will they learn?
Even my dogs are spoilt.
I've sacrificed a lot of my personal time, fun and play for everyone's sake; pleasing them, making things convenient for them and making them happy. What do I get in return? I don't even hear a thank you. All I hear is 'please', 'don't be like that la', 'I promise you' (Promise my ass. It's only words that I hear. Words with no actions.) etc. Just because we are a family, you think a 'thank you' is not necessary? I'm not expecting formalities. I just want to be appreciated for what I have done. Any more and I'll quit being the sacrificial lamb.
I wish I was the only child, so I didn't have to handle such situations. (Don't be mistaken, I don't detest nor hate them. In fact I dote on them a lot.) I wish my parents had more time for me, so they will communicate with me and understand how I feel. I wish my parents can put themselves in my shoes, so I won't have to feel so miserable all the time. I wish my parents haven't had me in the first place, my family would have been perfect without me.; even my neighbours didn't know I was my parents' daughter.
I wish I can disappear this very moment. I'm so sick of being stuck between making decisions for my own sake and making decisions for other's sake. I wish I didn't have to play the 'devil' when I'm not going to get anything in return.
I wish ...Labels: Emotions
I-dreamt-of-a-cavalier at 12:50 am
wishesGALORE
1) Go for Charity Dog Run
2)
Bring the Poochies out!
3) Set up an Adoption Blog
4) Donate money to Charity
5) Convince my friends to donate/volunteer at Charity as my birthday gift
6) Volunteer
7) Go Ubin
8) A Nice Over Night at Sentosa
9) Pudding to Blend in Well
